I used to think I was a night person, but I'm starting to doubt that's true in my 40s.
I still don't love waking in the morning, but once I get going, I find that the morning hours are when my energy is the highest. I enjoy bustling around all morning, getting things done, and then feel justified in taking a break to relax after lunch. One of my new favorite things is to eat lunch on the couch, while I'm watching a favorite tv show. That is definitely something new in this stage of my life.
Now that I've had a few months to adjust to Christina being in Pre-K all day, I think I am starting to feel a little more settled in this new season. Life doesn't feel any slower. Just different. I do find that I miss the children when they are gone all day, but I enjoy quiet. That hasn't been hard to adapt to. The quieter days make it that much easier to ponder, think, study the scriptures, or listen to uplifting music. Sometimes I don't want it quiet and blast high-energy dance tunes while I clean. Other days, I love the peacefulness of a quiet, empty home.
I had looked forward to winter and quieter days, but January is turning into a busy month. I'm actually kind of disappointed by that. I haven't posted much on the blog in January and I was trying to figure out why. I guess it's mostly because the things that have been keeping me busy haven't been photograph-friendly or fun. I tend to blog more about fun and light stuff. Sometimes that's not a very accurate portrayal of real life in our family.
Here's what I've been focusing on this week:
* One of my favorite to-do items has been planning our family cruise - what to pack, shore excursions, destination background, info about ship activities, and shopping for the trip. I have to be careful about travel research, though. If I do too much travel reading online before bed, I struggle to fall asleep.
* Yesterday on a whim I popped into a local shop called "Formal Fantasy" and browsed the clearance dresses. My Mia Maids had told me they sometimes have some good deals. I found a satin, black, floor-length, modest formal dress with a chiffon-type skirt overlay. I wasn't planning to dress up too fancy for Formal Nights on our cruise, but when I saw the $10 price tag, I went for it! I can't wait to get fancied up again. It made Ben happy too. He likes to dress up.
* My least favorite part of the week was packing up Christmas and hauling 30+ boxes into the attic. I was proud of myself though. I did most of it myself and had no mishaps!
* With all this time in the garage and attic, it felt good to organize and sweep the garage. It looks 100% better! Every time I pull into the garage, I feel quietly happy and good about my hard work.
* It has been easier to get to deep cleaning and organizing the house with the kids in school all day. I couldn't believe how many cobwebs I found in all my windows, behind the plantation shutters. I'm going room by room and trying to clean deeply. That feels nice too.
* A side effect of all the deep cleaning and organizing cabinets is making regular donations to our local Goodwill. I am not sure why I get such a high out of this kind of purging.
* Yesterday I had yet another dentist appointment. If I hear my dentist say the words, "
Wow. This is a lot worse (deeper, bigger, etc.) than I thought it would be," I think I'm going to cry. This was the first dentist appointment I've ever had when they struggled to get me numb enough. By the time he gave me three shots, most of my face felt paralyzed. It took until after dinner to feel normal again. I have one more appointment to go and then I hope for a nice long dental break!
* I've felt so happy reading the Book of Mormon in Spanish with a new member family in our ward. I was asked to do this with the mother and daughter. It brings back great missionary experiences and makes me feel so good as we read together. I've printed off reading schedules for them and I'm helping them (and myself) stay on track with regular reading. This is a blessing for them and me both. Reading from the scriptures regularly is a personal weakness of mine.
* Young Women continues to keep me very busy. This week I've enjoyed preparing a lesson about the Savior. I've felt the Spirit so strongly as I've thought of things to say, music to use, and have truly pondered on Jesus. I've been reminded of his love and my deep testimony of the atonement. Each Wednesday night, I attend activities, which makes for a full week in our family.
* Evenings are busy in our life right now. Mondays are always FHE. Tuesdays are Ben's stake meetings. He is often gone from 5-11 pm. He is strengthened and enriched by his interactions with our stake presidency. I'm thankful for their love and influence. He needs this in his life right now. Wednesdays are youth night. And this week (Thursday) we had R.S. It was a beautiful "Angels in Aprons" dinner program.
* I was asked to be the assistant YCL leader for Girls Camp this year. It has frustrated me a little because I want to do a good job, but I'm not sure about expectations. I am not taking the lead and work under a shoot-from-the-hip type leader. I hope I can "wing it" well enough, since I am not sure what to expect in our all-day meeting tomorrow. All I can do is my best, right? I am hard working and pretty flexible.
* I've been planning the details for Daniel's baptism. This has been tricky too, because there are various scripts and opinions for how this needs to be planned. I was referred to the handbook, which was helpful. Mostly I am on the right track, although I would like to do some special things for him that are taking a lot of time. Too much time. I've started working on a musical slideshow of Daniel's life to a beautiful variation of the Primary song "I'm Trying to Be Like Jesus." I have a vision for this project, but may not be able to complete it in a week. I envision having it playing outside the R.S. room as people are coming. It might be a long-term project that I can do for each of the children.
* With it being birthday-time, I've been shopping for Daniel's birthday and giving my Mom ideas for him too. Daniel is being difficult about a party with friends this year. He wants to do it at Chuck E. Cheese (in OKC) and we just don't have a Saturday or big enough block of time to do it there. I am dragging my feet on this plan and he won't flex. I'm not sure how to resolve it. I am also planning snacks for his class next week, along with his requested cookie cake for his classmates. It all feels like a lot of work this year.
* As if things aren't crazy enough in the travel department, I found a steal of a deal with American Airlines miles, so I recently booked a trip for me and the kids to Washington, DC over Spring Break. It's only 17,500 miles each and this destination is one both Katie and Daniel have hoped to visit. Ben is going to try and get appointments with potential donors in the area, so he can attend with us and sightsee over the weekend. I haven't even thought about details of this trip, since you can only focus on so many things at once.
* And then there's the fluffy part of how I've been using my time. I'm not sure what it is about January. I know there are lots of good deals to be found all year long, but I do more shopping for myself this month than any other. Maybe it's having Christmas money that I enjoy splurging a bit. And I do love a clearance sale! I've bought myself some clothes, makeup, earrings, ballet flats, and my favorite - new plum toggle coat.
* This is the silliest bullet item on this list. I have to work at figuring out my Christmas gifts. Typically, I don't get to my stuff until we get all the kids' toys and things figured out. New things that require "figuring out" overwhelm me. I need quiet to do that. As soon as the kids were back in school, I figured out how to use my new steam mop. I love it and it works amazingly well. Then there's my iPhone. I like some aspects of it - the music and calendar components, but still don't love the cell phone/texting part of it all. It's probably because I'm mostly home or I'm very focused on other things outside of the home. My Mom got me a Sonicare toothbrush and I'm loving that too. It gets my teeth cleaner than anything I've ever used.
And here's what I have NOT been good at focusing on this week:
* making good dinners (I just feel so scattered, spread thin, headachy, and super tired by dinner time. We've had way too many wimpy dinners and leftovers. I haven't stuck to my weekly menu at all this week!)
* packing kids' lunches - the younger two bought their lunch every day this week!
* dusting blinds - this is my least favorite cleaning task. I hate it and will do everything else, but that. Maybe I'll hire a Y.W. to come over and help me. They are super dusty and horrible!
* being fun - if I get too much in task mode, I'm not as light and fun as I should and want to be.
* naps - I can't wait to get caught up and make time for just an hour-long nap. Doesn't that sound heavenly?
Okay, wasn't that the most boring blog post you've ever read?
I have to admit that it makes me feel better, though, having written it. It helps me understand why I've felt so busy and scattered. We honestly have a lot going on.